Happy birthday to ruban & melissa's sweet 16!!

Tried to be first to wish melissa but she told me I was second sigh, haha. I'm feeling bad cos I didn't get anything for her :S
Quite a boring day in school today!

My birthday is in 3weeks but I'm not really looking forward to it. Somehow I think I won't get as many presents as last year :( JK, don't really matter much, maybe just a bit. I guess I'm just afraid some people would forget about it, insecurity.

Bought world cup for the first time! Feeling rather eggcited tho I won't be able to watch the match cos its 2.30am & I need to sleep!

I'm blogging for the first time w my BB haha. I want so many times, I'm beginning to feel so superficial, so fake. I want to find my true self :(

Faber Drive

Faber Drive is an awesome band & their MVs are so damn creative + original!!

I'll admit it, I like my world with you in it. Like a record, its broken. YEA YOU'RE A BUMP I'LL NEVER GET OVEERRR~~

Slept @ 11pm plus & woke up 6am this morning.
Unfruitful day.
Went to Lavender for some tnet funfair, played the 3 on 3 bball.
Pulled my team(TS, YJ) down, fuck myself haha.
Lavender Food Square has the bestest wanton mee ever!
I know, i'm a little bit suaku. Just a little hehe.
I thought Changi V's was great.
Heard there's a place called Fei Fei wanton mee which is great as well!
(Only heard of it today :S)
TS told me there's really such a thing as black hokkien mee.
(Toldya im a little suaku :D)
YTN told me before but i didnt believe her haha.
(Not gng to admit this as being suaku cos i want my pride hehehe)
Want to gym/ball as much as possible
NEED TO STUDY & SAVE MONEY

Sigh honestly i need to stop procrastinating, start to prioritize whats important & what is not! Okay first thing first would definitely be STUDYING. Everything else can go in any order haha.

I shall:
Study at least 2hrs a day!(I know its little but its a good start right)
Play basketball maximum twice a week.
Go gym whenever i'm done with studying for the day.
I might want to start a habit of jogging, maybe around Changi? ^^ Sounds good!!

The pros of doing all these is that i can surely save $$, maybe get better in studies, slowly build up my muscles & physical! This is a win-win situation but only if i'm able to abide by this self-made flexible "timetable", NEED SOME SELF-DISCIPLINE!!!

There are no cons for this haha, oh maybe there will be problems socially like i might lose a few friends/become distant to some friends becos this sound like a very introverted lifestyle! Cannot man, im an extrovert! Okay i shall have to make some free time in-between this "tight" schedule.

Sorry this post might be a little boring, or rather this blog is always very boring cos maybe there's just too much of me. Srsly, im not a self-obsessed person. Afterall there's always the [X] button on top left hand corner if you really dislike me/reading this blog! :)

I don't want stress, or rather i hate stress. I know hate is a strong word, but i really really really don't like STREESSSS! Actually, nobody is putting any stress on me; my parents don't demand/expect anything of my studies(at least they don't show so), teachers are not stressing me out at all. Its always me, I'll always put stress on myself unknowingly cos i want to try to be at least close to perfection. Always fail haha, not even once close.

BLACKHEADS, DARK CIRCLES, PIMPLES, WHITE HAIR, PLEASE GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!! WOULD BE APPRECIATED ALOT!!

Life

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

If only i'm able to laugh like this in reality.


I think i've got a not bad life, but i'm screwing it all up!
Fucking retard haha, i s h o u l d g o k i l l m y s e l f.

I like ranting off here, because i won't be like some people who goes telling the world how fucked up their life is on twitter, tryna get all the little pathetic attention.

Okay i shouldn't be commenting on this, afterall its their life. I'm just complaining because i've this weird feeling that every rant i see on twitter is directed at me! I hope they're not, obviously they are not coz i don't even know some of them well. Sigh i should just go fuck myself hahahahahahahahaha. PYRAMIDS, WE BUILT THIS ON A SOLID ROCK, IT FEELS JUST LIKE ITS HEAVEN'S TOUCH!

我愛的人

 This song brings back so many memories!



I really need to get down to earth & study! Get over this first-round-knock-out phase of my life, get over this fucking demoralising setback. I've been playing ball/gym everyday without fail since last monday & life is not suppose to be this way. I guess i'll just have to manage my time properly, i'll need sufficient sleep/study/gym/ball/conditioning. I want to get into finals & a good poly/jc next year, mark my words.

Talking about sleep, i think i've gotten quite enough haha. Fuck lah this EAP so slack, nobody gives a damn about discipline matters! Fucked up people like me takes over & takes advantage ^^

Pyramid

1) Pyramids by Charice featuring Iyaz is a (Y) song!

2) Today marks the day I'll have to study hard for "O"s

3) Went to ref for NAS-SKSS match, aft that ball @ 134

4) I'm feeling so damn tired, my ankles are hurting :(

5) I realised I charge my psp for 2 straight days.

6) Need to study

7) Need to save $$

8) Need to study

9) Need to save $$

.....

6521398) Need to study

6521399) Need to save $$

Happening!

I hope there'll be more chances for me to meet up with my dear friends, i don't want to lose any of them :'O

Stayover @ RS house ytd, played mahjong from 7pm till 1am plus, with a dinner break in between. Rs has the best mother in the world! She treats all of us like her own children.

I love my Blackberry phone!

Touched :' )

I did the "I like you becos.." status thing on fb & i must say this simple thing is so meaningful! I appreciate it that i have friends who cares about how i think about them, reason is definitely becos they care about me! I went to like some people's statuses too just to see what kind of person am i in people's eyes.

So basically:
I am a good teammate
I am very steady
I am friendly & helpful yet kao peh & guai lan (i like ^^)
I am a mahjong kaki
I am always smiling
I play poker but not greedy
I ROCK!! [(i like also^^)thanks asaph]
I am nice, don't get angry, easy going (Y)
I make retarded comments(N)
I hide under table @ POD with shuqi (Y)(Y)
I am steady to last minute plans
I am helpful & care for people even tho i f-ing gl & kp sometimes
I am fun to play basketball & hang out with
I eat creamer @ macs before gng training for strength
I am a nice senior & people like to chat w me on msn
I am persistant
I got a nice Blackberryphone
I am a nice person to chat with
I am cool [(Y) i like this alot^^]
I've grown up & changed
I am nice to everyone even tho i am shy
I seem harmless :'( Looks can be decieving!
I am reminded when people play poker & see J , K
I will always be remembered :')
I am always happy (i have my down times too :O)
I am pro in basketball (LOL)
I jump so high
I always so 'on' to everything

I like every single comment becos they are from my friends who comment truly with their heart :) I <3 my friends & i appreciate having them.

Perfection

I have so many expectations, so many "if only XX is more perfect". Applies to both living & non-living things. Apparently my mother is the furthest away from being IDEAL. Somebody please take a knife & kill her. Fucked up.

I know i'll never be perfect, but i want to be as close to perfect as I possibly can.

Second chance

"Instead of holding you, i was holding out
I should've let you in but i let you down
You were the first to give, i was the first to ask
Now im in second place to get a SECOND CHANCE"
Second chance - Faber drive

Many times in live, i wish for a second chance.
If i had a second chance, i would study very hard in lower sec.
If i had a second chance, i would do my very best in every basketball training.
Really regret having "fun" in my lower sec days.

Hey there, who ever is reading this.

If there is anyone reading this place where i rant like no tomorrow, can you please leave a comment on this post. Just wanna know if anyone reads all these bullshit im saying haha.

4/6/10

Life currently is so great i wish i'll never die!

CL "O" lvls was quite well done imo, compared to last year
At least a B3 this time cmon.
Gonghan not bad, bzbd like shit, paper 2 do-able.

Won opening match against qianxi ytd.
Even thought we play super below average, we won 67-34 ._.
Scored 3 points, fucking lousy

Had MBTI profiling in school & fine dining in the evening.
Today was a great day, but still not yet a fairytale.
If we beat tagawa(blue) next monday, i'll happy beyond description!

Tmr against Fairfield Alumni @ AHS.
Hope the whole team, including me, can perform to standards.

"The grass may be greener on the other side, but the other side will never have someone like you."