Great day :)

Today was a great day!!
Caught Step Up 3 with my favourite people in the world.
I like how I just have to ask these awesome people one day before & everyone would watch such a last minute planned movie with me :') No regrets, awesome movie watched with awesome people.

I am so damn envious of multitalented people!! Dance, sing, play musical instruments, just name it. Me? Mediocre basketball skills, below par academics, GRADE 1 PIANO WAHAHA. Nothing else to my name :(

I hope even when we all are in different schools, we still stay connected & not lose contacts :( I rmb thats what I said when I was primary 6 also, look what happened. SIGHHH

WOW

THIS BOY DANCING, CAN MAN!!

Been so long

知自知彼，百战百胜.
I hate SS, SS is my enemy. I will know SS inside out, so I can own its backside!!

 

Been so long since I came home early, & STAY HOME. Been so long since I last turn my computer on. Been so long since I open up a textbook & read. Been so long BUT I'm still not able to speak confidently, without a single feel of uncertainty. 

 

I really really want to shout out loud that today's EL papers was quite easy/do-able. But I'm afraid everyone would laugh at me when I get my result back & see a F9 grade. 

 

How?

:(

Where are you? & I'm so sorry,

I need something like this in my life!!!!!

Studies, love, bad romance

I think I have a big fat improvement in my attitude towards studying!! ^^ Went for nightstudy just now at the canteen & mr khong taught me chemistry. Chemistry is not as alien to me alr, like a happy only :) L1R4 < 20, go jkt!!!

Woah,so many things have been happening & all are negative stuffs!! Not to me, but to so many of my friends. All their problems boils down to one single scary word: LOVE. Its prolly the sweetest feeling at the start but look what happen towards the end. Many of my friends confided in me, I feel so important haha jk. Altho I can't give advice from an experiend person's point of view, but as a friend I still don't know how to console them :( Why must there be such a thing as break up? It gives nothing but misery to both parties, FUCK LOVE. Seeing all these happening, I'm not gonna fall in love haha, I just know I'll screw everything up cos I'm the most tongue tied, poorest-performance-under-pressure kinda guy. I'll need the most uds-ing girl on earth cos every others will just get annoyed HAHA. Love is a fucking fallacy, EVERYBODY, PUT UP YOUR HANDS SAY I DON'T WANNA BE IN LOVE, I DON'T WANNA BE IN LOVEE!!

Kk gtg need to be rather early for breakf tmr, no insomnia tonight please!! :S

YOUSLERS MARDERFARKER

I hate not being able to be of help to my friends in need :(
This useless, dispensible feeling just sucks like to the maximum.
Sigh, yh I know you're seeing this. Please cheer up thank you :)

Tired of being tired

Phew had really been practising POA a lot these days, papers after papers. Time to catch up on emath, then it'll be intensive humanities for the weekends!! I'm starting to see more worth in myself cos I'm finally studying, as in really getting the hang of studying. Feeling goooood ^^

Had EL oral today, totally screwed it all up :(

Okay my aim for prelims is to get L1r4 <20. Desired would be 15points, haha.
Go me!! I can do it!!!! (I hope)

Dilemma, uncertain, mixed-feelings, hurt

"O"s Chinese results released today, B3 motherfucking merit. I really dk if I'm supposed to be satisfied or disappointed. Honestly, B3 is quite a not bad result compared to my loser-last-in-level C5. Merit again, FUCKMYFUCKINGFUCKUPLIFEHARD. This means it wouldn't be easy to get an A1 even aft retaking EOY's paper. Srsly, I have higher expectations of myself, & I really think from the bottom of my heart I can do better. Sigh, talk is cheap.

One word to describe my mood? Fuckup

Fuck is my ultimate vocab.

Priority

Classic happened today, supposed to go airport to study but went to play mahjong instead. Pangseh a good friend in the process, prolly losing some trust altogether. I only have 6 FUCKING SUBJECTS, I'm not even concerned, no sense of urgency & what not. I said I would study, like months ago. WTF AM I DOING NoW??

Kk need to really self-reflect on myself. What is humanities & what is chemistry?

Something 'bout love - David Archuleta

Enjoy!

Overwhelming sadness

Just found my dear cousin's blog & realised how much I missed out with her!! Can't believe I wasn't even there with her through her darkest times, guilty much. Saw a few things on her blog that made my heart drop, wave of sadness gets all over me :( Sigh, guess our lives are all too busy rn that we don't really spend as much time tgt alr.

Inferior

Seriously cannot think of anything I have to boast of :(
Financially, exterior, interior.
No money, not handsome, no character.

Sleepy eyes, bunny teeth, out of shape body, white hair, dark circles, body acne. Lmfao, I really don't know why I so .......... Fuckup?

I can't seem to concentrate on studying, why?

Amazing, just the way you are

Just the way you are - Bruno Mars

My mind is blank right now.
Celebrated ryan's birthday at ballota park last night/this morning.
Had fun.
The end.

I hate it.

I hate it when people don't trust me.
I hate it when people gives me dirty looks.
I hate it when people looks down on me.
I hate it when people don't believe me when I say I want to study & mean it.
I hate mother fuckers.
I hate all of you.

The one thing I hate the most is when I fail a test, motherfuckers laughs at me & taunts me. Cos no I don't fight back, I'll just give up.

I hate myself.

What the hell

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Hey August, please be as good as July ;)

Okay, altho July plunged rocked bottom at a point of time, it went back to sky high. I think I've "woke up" to all the nonsense I've been doing for the past 6+ months this year. I didn't study at all. Time for me to start finding ppl to help me w POA, Chemistry, & both my combined humanities subjects. Poa & chemistry, I only know the basic fundamentals, humanities is totally at point ZERO. Sigh, anyone wants to help? :)

I think I'll only go night study when I finally find people to help me with either 4 of the subjects cos night study is way too uneffective for me when I'm revising alone.