Absence makes the heart grows fonder, it's true :(

Life has turned around to a brighter side for me :)
I'm feeling happier day as each day past, how i wish this will never stop.

This is gonna be quite a wordy & long post, haha.

I realise the importance of $$money through this short period of unpredictable World Cup 2010, a little through the hard way, a lot more on seeing how somebody loses his mind & couldn't control himself in this very scary thing called, "GAMBLING".

I've lost $200< in this June-July period, which means 2/3 of my monthly allowance, at least I'm able to pay up & control myself not to hit the magic number of $300. I think paying up when I lose $$ in gambling is very important as it reflects alot about myself & also the impression of me to my "creditor". You owe money for too long, you lose the little bit of respect people have for you. C'mon man, no money, don't gamble!! Simple as that. WB should really reflect on what he has done in this short period of barely 1 month's time. Okay to put it nicely, he lost $500<. Fact is he paid up $100> becos $400< are debts which he owe people, he owes me $70. I'm not expecting it anytime soon, or rather, I'm guessing he would only pay me around next year :S

Thats just the the sad part for him financially. Now, many people I know, A.K.A his creditors, looks down on him/disrespects him. To be honest, i'm also one of them who really look down on him right now, i thought these kinda gambling addiction happens only on drama serials. I used to be his friend, now i can't really stand the sight of him. Firstly he owes me money, then his tone when he talks to me is fuckup. Not shy one sia. He actually got the cheek to ask me for more money so he could pay others first, i told him to fuck off.

Seeing the state he is in, here i vow i'll never end up in a similar plight as him. People like TS, MS, BL, RS, YH & so many others who used to be friends w him shares the same sentiments as me. No we're not fair-weather friends, but what he has done is really too much. My friends are of utmost importance to me, I'll never let them see me in the same light as WB. I trust i do not have a single fair-weather friend, every single one of them is important to me.

Kk time to change the subject, its getting too tense cos the more i type, the more i feel WB is the most retarded arsehole on this Earth.

On a lighter note, my father deposited $200 in to my bank account today!! This means more money to spend/I'm finally able to buy my Braun Buffel wallet!! ^^ I've to admit i was really shock/stun when my father told me this morning that he transfer the $$ to my account. Maybe i shouldn't cos i've always known he was a very generous man!! This has always been on my heart but i've never told a single soul before. He ask me every now & then if i have enough money to spend; he gives my grandfather alot of money every month; he always asks me if i want to bring my friends to DTE's Sakura to eat, his treat. He gives me alot of allowance, compared to some of my friends. To tell the truth, he don't have a very high salary. I don't understand how he is able to keep this family together, he must have sacrificed many meals. He works @ ECP/marine cove, we stay in Changi, he cycles to work everyday to save on transport fees. Yet here i am, spending money as though i deserve $$ rightfully. I should really cherish this father of mine, though naggy & unreasonable at times, he is really a great father.

The End!!

His crush tells him about her crush

I hope this won't ever happen to me

I'm feelin' rather down today, overwhelmed w mixed feelings. I hate feeling so wasted & unwanted all the time!! Need to stay positive, steamboat @ cindy's place to celebrate her birthday & mine!! Hope things would pick up by then.

Like gravity, you're pulling every part of me.

Phew what a busy week, i came home like later than 9pm everyday tho its a school week. Celebrated Kelly's sweet 16th, it'll be my turn this saturday, haha. Excited much!!

I didn't turn my computer on since Monday, but i didn't study since a billion years ago. So nothing to rejoice about!! :(

I want to be smart, rich, attractive. It all links up!! If i'm smart, i would be able to earn lots of money = no more white hair. When i'm rich, i can go for plastic sugery, buy branded clothes like i'm just buying dinner. Nah i probably won't go for plastic sugery even if i have the money, makes me a fake person!

JK, stop dreaming =.=

She's out of my league

This show is damn awesome, fantastic storyline, hot chicks, a little touching. I rate it 10/10, a hard 10 :)

I don't get why in movies all the average joe gets their happily ever after story. I'm an average joe too, where's mine? :(

This show relates to me quite a bit. The inferiority complex I have is immense! Every girl is like a [10] & I'm just another [5]. Why can't I just look better, a little more money, a little smarter, a litter more of everything! Sigh, this is getting too personal but I guess I'll just have to wait till I find a Mrs Right. Mrs Right =/= Mrs Perfect. Mrs Perfect would be good but a Mrs Right would definitely be better. Someone who understands me, cares about me, most imptly, loves me :)

I'll wait a century if I have to.

Until I reached the point of no return

School days are like the same as holidays for me, sigh.

Shit I've been sighing a lot these days!

Might be going for TP's open house, hope jasper don't pangseh again =.=

I'm always feeling so jealous of everything, fuck life!

Now is the down period of this fucked up journey, hope things pick up soon. Might be watching Toy Story 3 tmr! MIGHT being the operative word here cos PLANS CAN JUST CRASH SO FUCKING EASILY.

Why, why, why, why, why.......WHY?!

Happy birthday to ruban & melissa's sweet 16!!

Tried to be first to wish melissa but she told me I was second sigh, haha. I'm feeling bad cos I didn't get anything for her :S
Quite a boring day in school today!

My birthday is in 3weeks but I'm not really looking forward to it. Somehow I think I won't get as many presents as last year :( JK, don't really matter much, maybe just a bit. I guess I'm just afraid some people would forget about it, insecurity.

Bought world cup for the first time! Feeling rather eggcited tho I won't be able to watch the match cos its 2.30am & I need to sleep!

I'm blogging for the first time w my BB haha. I want so many times, I'm beginning to feel so superficial, so fake. I want to find my true self :(

Faber Drive

Faber Drive is an awesome band & their MVs are so damn creative + original!!

I'll admit it, I like my world with you in it. Like a record, its broken. YEA YOU'RE A BUMP I'LL NEVER GET OVEERRR~~

Slept @ 11pm plus & woke up 6am this morning.
Unfruitful day.
Went to Lavender for some tnet funfair, played the 3 on 3 bball.
Pulled my team(TS, YJ) down, fuck myself haha.
Lavender Food Square has the bestest wanton mee ever!
I know, i'm a little bit suaku. Just a little hehe.
I thought Changi V's was great.
Heard there's a place called Fei Fei wanton mee which is great as well!
(Only heard of it today :S)
TS told me there's really such a thing as black hokkien mee.
(Toldya im a little suaku :D)
YTN told me before but i didnt believe her haha.
(Not gng to admit this as being suaku cos i want my pride hehehe)
Want to gym/ball as much as possible
NEED TO STUDY & SAVE MONEY

Sigh honestly i need to stop procrastinating, start to prioritize whats important & what is not! Okay first thing first would definitely be STUDYING. Everything else can go in any order haha.

I shall:
Study at least 2hrs a day!(I know its little but its a good start right)
Play basketball maximum twice a week.
Go gym whenever i'm done with studying for the day.
I might want to start a habit of jogging, maybe around Changi? ^^ Sounds good!!

The pros of doing all these is that i can surely save $$, maybe get better in studies, slowly build up my muscles & physical! This is a win-win situation but only if i'm able to abide by this self-made flexible "timetable", NEED SOME SELF-DISCIPLINE!!!

There are no cons for this haha, oh maybe there will be problems socially like i might lose a few friends/become distant to some friends becos this sound like a very introverted lifestyle! Cannot man, im an extrovert! Okay i shall have to make some free time in-between this "tight" schedule.

Sorry this post might be a little boring, or rather this blog is always very boring cos maybe there's just too much of me. Srsly, im not a self-obsessed person. Afterall there's always the [X] button on top left hand corner if you really dislike me/reading this blog! :)

I don't want stress, or rather i hate stress. I know hate is a strong word, but i really really really don't like STREESSSS! Actually, nobody is putting any stress on me; my parents don't demand/expect anything of my studies(at least they don't show so), teachers are not stressing me out at all. Its always me, I'll always put stress on myself unknowingly cos i want to try to be at least close to perfection. Always fail haha, not even once close.

BLACKHEADS, DARK CIRCLES, PIMPLES, WHITE HAIR, PLEASE GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!! WOULD BE APPRECIATED ALOT!!

Life

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

If only i'm able to laugh like this in reality.


I think i've got a not bad life, but i'm screwing it all up!
Fucking retard haha, i s h o u l d g o k i l l m y s e l f.

I like ranting off here, because i won't be like some people who goes telling the world how fucked up their life is on twitter, tryna get all the little pathetic attention.

Okay i shouldn't be commenting on this, afterall its their life. I'm just complaining because i've this weird feeling that every rant i see on twitter is directed at me! I hope they're not, obviously they are not coz i don't even know some of them well. Sigh i should just go fuck myself hahahahahahahahaha. PYRAMIDS, WE BUILT THIS ON A SOLID ROCK, IT FEELS JUST LIKE ITS HEAVEN'S TOUCH!

我愛的人

 This song brings back so many memories!



I really need to get down to earth & study! Get over this first-round-knock-out phase of my life, get over this fucking demoralising setback. I've been playing ball/gym everyday without fail since last monday & life is not suppose to be this way. I guess i'll just have to manage my time properly, i'll need sufficient sleep/study/gym/ball/conditioning. I want to get into finals & a good poly/jc next year, mark my words.

Talking about sleep, i think i've gotten quite enough haha. Fuck lah this EAP so slack, nobody gives a damn about discipline matters! Fucked up people like me takes over & takes advantage ^^